Life as it is

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Terlintas akan terjadi
Semuanya... suratan Ilahi
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Bisikan suara hatiku
Dapatkah kau memahami....?
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Dan inginku nyatakan
ku cinta padamu...

Seluas langit terbentang
Sedalam hamparan lautan
Begitulah kasihku padamu
Seindah palu irama
Selembut gemalai tari
Membuai jiwa penuh persona
Tiada yang dapat memisahkan
Hanya takdir penentu suratan
Tak usah kau ragu
Ku jua menyintai dirimu

Namun semua itu hanyalah khayalan
Dirimu dan diriku
Tak kan mungkin kan bersatu
Andai ku sedari
Sedari dulu

Takkan ku cuba hampiri
Dirimu walau berkali
Ku cuba tuk melenyapkan
Bayangan wajahmu dan kenangan lalu
Dirimu tetap di hatiku
Kaulah yang satu
Untuk ku
Kau tetap milik ku

Ok, i've been putting this off for a while but i'll do it now before i find another reason not to do it lol Time to introduce my best friends this year.

Rasyidah a.k.a. Poo-poo is my closest friend. She used to be real quiet but somehow she converted into this really funny and weird girl who likes to tease people. I used to never be able to think of anything to say to her and now I don't really need to think of what to say. I think part of the reason she was so quiet was because she hadn't really made friends with anyone yet. Anywho, she can be really weird sometimes! She loves Japanese anime and Japanese songs. She's always giving me links to these weird, boring videos and she makes me watch them. They're usually songs so I just listen cause they're too boring to watch!! She and her boyfriend, Aizat a.k.a. Jat-jat are so annoying! When Syidah isn't in school, Jat-jat would complain to me about how he misses her and whatever. Whenever we're online, Syidah would complain to me about how she misses Jat-jat and whatever. Once in a while, it'd be fine but they do it all the time! I mean, yeah I get that they're practically married but why complain to me??? Oh well, maybe I'm just cute that way ;) Whenever she has problems, Rasyidah would always confide in me. Sometimes, well almost every time, when she and Jat-jat are having problems or Jat-jat is mad and she doesn't know why, she sends me to talk to him for her. It's cool, i guess. I don't mind helping out. When I have problems, I talk to her too. She's not very helpful most of the time but i guess it just helps to talk about it. I care about her like a sister though and I'd hate for us to not be friends anymore.

Haziqah is also my best friend. She is very pretty but is really self-conscious. It's strange but she thinks she's fat when she's so not. I have no idea why she thinks that way. Maybe the problem with her eyes is not about distance but width. She's really funny. Like me, she loves Spongebob cause it's such a stupid show. And like me, she remembers most of the lines in the episodes if she thinks it's funny enough. We'd laugh all day repeating the lines in just one episode. It's ridiculous really but i enjoy it a lot. She really loves boys and is in love with a lot of her cousins @_@ yeah i know weird. I mean, i'm in love with a cousin but it's just one :P Anyway, between my four besties, she was the first to know cause i knew she wouldn't care that it was with my cousin. Whenever Safwan, a classmate, teased her, she'd complain to me and ask for my help. I usually did. I love hanging out with her. She can make anything sound funny. I don't know why but she always makes me laugh. I also care about her like a sister and hope we can be friends for a long time.

Mutiah is another awesome friend. Unlike Ziqah, she's not at all self-conscious. She's usually really confident with herself. She knows what she can and can't do. I think that is really cool about her. I can also talk to her about anything. She always, and i mean always, tells the truth about what she thinks. Somehow, it never hurts when she does. She's real close to Ziqah but loves to tease her a lot. She loves telling Ziqah that she's fat, which really doesn't help with her confidence =.= But she's great fun to be with and everything. I love hanging out with her. Like Ziqah, she's really into boys but she's the only one in our group who's never had a boyfriend yet. Who knows when she finally will. Anyway, she's a really great friend and I wouldn't want to lose her.

Masyitah is the last of our group, well not including Irah but I already described her as my cousin. She's really nice. We can talk to each other about anything although she's closer to Irah. Her boyfriend, I'm not really fond of but whatever. It's her life. She can be funny when she wants to be or very serious. I'm not as close to her as i am to the others but we're not that bad. But i don't really know what else to say about her. Sorry Masy! But she's still my best friend and i hope we stay that way.

Anywho, the six of us are a group but we can usually be divided into groups of two. Me and Rasyidah, Ziqah and Tiah, Masy and Irah. I love hanging out with all of them, whether in a group or just one-on-one.

1. When a girl bumps your arm while walking, she wants you to hold her hand.
2. When she just stands there, she wants a hug.
3. When you break her heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
4. When she is quiet, millions of things are running through her head.
5. When she's not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
6. When she looks at you with questioning eyes, she is wondering how long you will be around.
7. When a girl says, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
8. When she stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.
9. When she lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
10. When she says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
11. When she says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that.
12. When she is mean to you after a breakup, she wants you back but is scared that she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever.

Dygta-Tetap Milikmu


Hapus air matamu
Aku tak ingin kau menangis lagi sayang
Yakinkan hati di antara resahmu
Diriku tak 'kan memilih meninggalkanmu

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Tapi kau yang kuinginkan dari s'galanya

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Hanya memanggilmu
Ku yakin kau pun mengerti
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Sayangku dengarkan aku
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'Kan kupertahankan kau cintaku
Dan semua air matamu yang berarti di hidupku s'lalu

Sayangku dengarkan aku
Tak mungkin ku melepasmu
Bawalah cintaku bersamamu
Kar'na ku tetap milikmu selamanya 'kan abadi s'lalu

Ok i doN't want u to think that i onLy talk aBoUt bOys so nOw i'm goNna tell you aBouT tHreE of my cousins, frah, irh n nbel. Yes, weird names i know but they're weird people so we're goNna have to forgiVe them.

FirSt of all iS frah. She is 13 yearS old (if i'm nOt mistaken) and will bE in form 3 next year. She's oNe of my best friends. At hoMe,we're pRetTy close. We like to argue aBouT stUpid stUfF. We tease eaCh other a lot. I caN trust her with anythiNg and the best thiNg is that she undErStands. Even if she doesn't, at least she tries. She is so cooL that way.

Irh is 17 and will mOst pRobabLy be in the lower sixth form with me next year. I caN't be toO sure caUse our o'level results haven't coMe ouT yet. AnyWay, she's my best friend at hoMe and at schooL. We're in the same clasS after all. AnywaY, with her i caN talk aBouT anythiNg, hoMe-relateD or schooL-relateD. She's a great friend. Always nice to talk tO. Always there for me. Always reliabLe. You knOw the drill loL

Nbel is 16 and will bE in form 5 next year. She's boy-crazY and lots of fun. Like the typicaL americaN teEnager, she's into clothes and hates schooL. She's into the nOrmal thiNgs teEnagerS are into, listening to music, arguing with her parents, watchiNg tV, anNoying our grandmOther, hangiNg ouT with friends... YoU knOw, stUfF. BuT she's great to hang ouT with and is a goOd friend.

Together, the four of us make a great team. We have the mOst fun when we're all tOgether. We all loOk oUt fOr oNe anOther. When oNe of us cries, the rest of us will bE there for her nO matTer what.

Ok, this is my first time making a blog so i'm sorry if it looks ridiculous ahhaha this blog is not intended for anyone to see.. i'm just making sure that i have a diary that no one, at least no one i know, will see. I hope...

This is pretty cool though. I can make it any way i want. :D

Anyway... from now on, this will my very own personal diary that no one crucial will read. I can write anything i want because the only people who reads this are people who just found it by chance and i wouldn't know who you are wahahahaha!!!!

Ok, whatever... Sorry I'm bored.

Early warning, i sometimes arue with myself. It doesn't solve my problems but i like to write it down because... um... well... i don't know why but i just like too...

Ok I'm done with this post. ok..........