Life as it is

OMG!!! Last night, Smile came online! I told Nbel, Nysa n Zqah n they all told me 2 text him.. I was so scared!! But Nysa was adamant about it.. She can be such a mother sometimes (lol!). So this is what our conversation was like:

Me: hi...
Him: hello
Me: spa ni? (i know! embarrassing!)
Him: shouldn't i be the one to ask you that? :) (how sweet! he smiled! xp)
Me: really? how come? (can i be any lamer??)
Him: cause u were the one who added me hehe
Me: really? 0_o i dun remember hehe... (i just hate myself =.=")
Him: maybe it was a long time ago thats y u dun remember (he's so nice! making up an excuse for me ^^)
Him: aku pun bru ani jua n9 kn..
Me: ya kh? rtiny lma dh na n9 la 2?
Him: yeps
Me: ooo how come? (busybody!!)
Him: bz
Me: bz w/ wat? (i could just slap myself)
Him: bz w/ commitment hehe
Me: oh ok..hehe soe pnyibuk jua aku ni eh (aaahhh!!! @_@)
Him: its okay
Me: em jap a.. n9 kai hp..
Me: sal my sis kn pnjm lptop hehe
Me: (offline)
Me: (online)
Me: bak..
Him: wow that was fast
Me: hehe lightning x a (talk about LAME)
Him: okay (he hates me! he OFFICIALLY hates me!)
Him: im so sorry (what a sweet apology... *sigh*)
Me: y?
Him: ive to go now
Me: wow kjap jua..ehe..
Him: au sal isuk kn kaja
Him: goodnyt
Me: owh ok hehe sian jua.. kaja dmna?
Me: k nyts..
Him: dbank
Me: Assalamualaikum
Him: w'lam
Him: (offline)

The text in green involves me pacing back and forth in my room w/ my phone in my hand. OMG!! What the hell is wrong w/ me?? I've never been lyk this before.. Why should i start now?? And i even changed my MSN nick to "i'm falling head over heels for a stranger and i don't know why" so Nysa thought i was in love -.-' Ridiculous, right?? N she said he was my type.. Like, i barely know him so how would i know if he was my type?? i mean, yes i usually like guys that r funny n whatever but ive never gone out w/ 1 before! I usually get asked by the serious guys... N he did seem serious when i saw him at the book fair... But when i looked at his friendster, he didn't seem serious at all... So i don't know.. How can i like him when i barely even know him?

Plus there's this guy in Facebook who is not bad n is funny! We keep sending each other stuff and adding messages on them... I actually look forward to them whenever i log into Facebook... But i don't go all gaga over him like i do w/ Smile... Oh maybe i should come up w/ a nickname 4 Facebook guy as well, huh? Hmm... Let's see... Ok, i'll call him Sweet lol cause he is.. There's this application on Facebook where u rate a person's lovability n give reasons as to why... i didn't really look at it but i sent it to him.. Then he rated my lovability as 4!! AND he gave a reason 4 it.. This is what he wrote: "Ia ani?lovely...hari2 bgi aku bunga..love..hug..apa saja notificationnya..ku balas byk2 eyhh..usulnya gi periang!!" OMG!!! How sweet is that!!

But i just don't know how i really feel for either of them.. Smile and Sweet.. Lol...

Ok lol i am seriously retarded right hahaha so now that im free from the trappings of a serious relationship, i've finally started spotting some cute guys in school.. Other than Smile, of course ;)

First is Hot Guy In Front Of Me hahaha Like i said... I'm completely retarded.. Ziqah and i spent our PS at the canteen the other day. There was like no one in front of us.. Well, a few tables away there were lol Two guys... The one in front of Ziqah was NOT cute.. But the one in front of me was so hot! lol Thus we dubbed him as Hot Guy In Front Of Me... (retarded much!)

Ok second is Chong Chong Ling Ling... (Ziqah came up with the name! I'm innocent! ;P) This week, we have joint sociology classes with the other Block 2 class. Chong Chong Ling Ling was in the other class lol and he is hot!! I was asking Irah for his name since he's in one of her classes but she couldn't remember.. So Ziqah said all the Chinese names sound alike (sorry Chinese people! She's just like that!) (and oh! btw, he's Chinese [duh!]) so she just made it up and said Chong Chong Ling Ling hahaha we're not trying to be mean btw.. Thats just how we r... Sorry if anyone's offended.. I sincerely apologise..

Ok, first of all, i will start referring to this blog as a real n genuine diary.. i.e. i will always start my posts with a "Dear Diary" in front lol... Anywho...

Dear Diary (*giggles* i can't believe i hav an online diary lol),

Erm... I forgot what i was going to say in the midst of all the excitement of an online diary lol...

Oh yeah, no wait.. That's not what i was going to write about.. DARN IT!! I COMPLETELY FORGOT!! ;'(

Alright fine.. Never mind.. Forget this post ever happened..

OMG! What is wrong with me?? I don't even know Smile and I'm practically obsessing over him... Just a few hours ago, i was checking one of my friendster profiles (I have 3, FYI) and i got a new comment. I was like "OMG! What if it was him replying to my comment??" (I had given him a comment yesterday thanking him for accepting me. How pathetic am i!) And guess what? IT WAS HIM!! *giggles happily* Turns out he sent the exact same thing to all three of my profiles *giggles furiously* So i replied with only two of my accounts. I don't wanna seem desperate ;O I mean.. i just broke up.. i wanna be single for a while.. lol... i wanna be.. free... free to crush on people (wahaha!!:P)

P.S. Smile is the really cute guy i saw at the book fair lol

Ok i hav 2 things 2 tell today.. the first really stressing me out n the second really makes my heart flutter *sigh*

ok first things first. Remember Muid? My first bf? Yeah, well, he wants to get back together with me. Of course i said no. But guys can be really persistent. Did you know that? I didn't. Anywho, he told me to be his girlfriend for a short time only. I was like "WHAT??" Well i didn't say that to him lol so anyway of course i kept saying no. Finally he got the message that i seriously didn't have any feelings for him. Thank goodness!

Ok, NEXT!! There was a book fair at the icc.. Today is the last day. So anyway, i didn't really find any good books at good prices.. But i did find a lot of good deals at the computer shops. I know, computer shops at a book fair. Go figure. Anyway, i got a 2GB pendrive at this shop n guess what?? *giggles excitedly* *rolls eyes at self* THERE WAS THIS REALLY REALLY CUTE GUY!!! OMG!!! He was like perfect! He was cute, he seemed serious AND cute, my cousin Irah said he seemed to read books (obviously an important factor!!), he's 2 years my senior (meaning he's older than me and probably more mature than hamzi) AND HE'S CUTE!!! So turns out my friend knows his little brother or sister so she was able to give me his email. I added his friendster but i can't add his msn yet cause he'll wonder where i got his email. If he accepts me on friendster first, I'll be able to tell him i got his email from his friendster =P Good plan, right? Haha! I know! God, I'm so pitiful... And desperate.. Anyway, I don't care. He's FREAKING CUTE!! He just kept smiling at me and all.. Oh my god... I just melt under his gaze... Oh! Oh! And.. And our hands sort of touched (by accident, of course!) and i could have fainted. *sigh* Oh my god! I've never been like this before! Well, at least as far as i can remember, anyway.





P.S. I know I like totally deleted the Kuingin Kamu video and lyrics.. So what...