Life as it is

I wonder... When someone says they love you forever, do they really mean it? Do they really imagine that they're gonna love you forever? Ataupun salah satu ayat yang automatic? Like, it's part of the script and it's just one way to woo someone.

Aiyoo.. I completely forgot what else I was gonna add to this.. -.-' Never mind~

I visited Baz's blog last night and saw the picture she took of me, Tiah & Jiqah. Hahahha... So not the way I usually take my pictures.. Lol.. I mean the pose.. I look so weird!! XD Well, no.. Not weird exactly.. Aku inda pernah begambar pakai pose cematu bah.. And I never thought that I would.. Anyway, Baz typed in our names using a big font.. I have no idea why. I mean, I know I have an awesome name. Hahha..

Okay.. Bah atu saja... :)

In the end, he decided to give back the keychain, yang aku sebenarnya inda banar2 mau.. The hell with you kisshole! Sorry.. I don't actually like to curse.. At least not verbally.. Lol... it feels kinda funny to say curse words... Actually I don't know why certain words are curses.. But I'm not gonna talk about that..

Sambil ku chat sama c-Cuzen tu, I was chatting with my ex-classmate, Jul2. I told him about my dilemma with History guy.. I talked about him and not Chong Chong Ling Ling not because I prefer him but because he's the more practical choice and most likely I won't get to see him next year since he's an Upper Six student..

So he told me to smile at History guy.. To say hi to him.. I would if I could but I just can't @_@ I'm not the type.. Lol... But I vowed that I would at least smile at History guy.. I was gonna.. I really was! =) But then.. On Monday, I was going to Lit class and I decided to pass by his class and he was outside!! Oh gosh.. He is so damn cute.. At the time, aku tengah ngafal notes untuk test Socio masa patang tu.. As soon as I saw him outside, I guess I kinda panicked... XP I completely forgot what the hell I was trying to memorize and I forgot my resolve to at least smile at him.. He also seemed to be looking my way, making me stress out even more.. So instead, I did not look at him at all.. I quickly took out my notes and tried to look for whatever it was I was trying to remember. I didn't dare to look back until I turned the corner.. Lol.. Panicky much! XD

I couldn't smile at him on Tuesday because it was a public holiday duh! The Sultan's birthday.. Sorry, dude.. No presents.. Lol.. I couldn't yesterday OR today because by the time I got to History class, he'd gone out already.. Damn it! I hope I get to see him on Saturday.. Psal aku bnar2 mo cba snyum arh ia.. I really want to see his reaction to that.. x)

Wahh.. Cute eh CCLL arine.. *sigh*... I don't see him much anymore.. I don't know why.. :( I wish I saw him more.. But for what? He probably thinks I'm some sort of a stalker.. Or something like that.. I'm not.. I'm really not.. I just can't help but get all hyper when I see him.. And the fact that I remember his schedule is because my brain likes to pick up little details like that.. Unimportant facts.. And then it forgets all the really big stuff.. Lol...

OMG!! I almost forgot!! XD I don't know if I've mentioned this before.. There's this guy, K.A., arah traditonal dance club... I can't tell if he's gay or straight but he's SO cute!! Tiah n Irah thinks so too!! And he's so good.. Even though Irah and I joined way before he did.. He's so much better.. Lol.. He even joined the dance competition for tomorrow night.. Unfortunately Irah said they didn't submit their entry in time so they can't compete.. Too bad.. :( I was so looking forward to seeing it.. Anyway, on Monday.. We had been practicing this dance called "Tarian Hati Tertawan" or something like that.. Like 15 mnutes to the end of our session, they played "The Potential Break-Up SOng" by Aly & AJ.. You know what?? K.A. & one of the other gay/straight guys started dancing to it. At first, we were thinking, wow.. They made their own dance for this song.. But after a while, we realized they just edited the traditional dance we were learning!! OMG!! And they were so good!! And K.A. WAS SO DAMN HOT!!! I was like melting.. Tiah, Irah and I, it was almost like we were the ones dancing, we sweated a lot haha He was so hot man!!!

Bah bah adang!! =P

So again, I didn't have Literature in the afternoon since Ms. Salwa was still at the hospital with her mum. Tapinya inda ku bagitau uncle suruh ambil aku awal. x) After I went to my locker (Jiqah already went home), I went down to the stairs by the admin building where Jiqah and I crossed paths with History guy in the above diagram. There's an ECA bulletin board there as well so I stopped there in the pretense of looking at the few notices pinned up. I was actually waiting for History guy to come back up from the canteen lol... XD What?? I was bored... So I read some of the notices and then Jun-Jun came and started talking to me. Then History guy went past behind us!! Jun-Jun!! Talk about bad timing!! Lol... I just watched his reflection... Sigh.. So cute ma... So After he passed by us, Jun-Jun excused himself as well. I would've followed History guy (he went behind the admin building again) if Jun-Jun hadn't gone the exact same way!!! :O I was afraid he would look back and see me and start talking to me again when all I wanted was to see History guy.. I mean, seriously.. Dude.. You're my friend and all... But friends shouldn't stand in the way of true love.. Ya know? Apakn!!! Krek kli aku ni... Hahhaha...

So I spent the hour reading.. I saw History guy when he was supposed to be in class so I was surprised because he doesn't really look like the type of guy to skip class.. =) So I "went to the toilet" and walked by his class and it was empty.. And I'm like "Ohh.. Okay.. He doesn't have class.." As if it was any of my business!! So I went back down and read some more. Maybe about ten minutes later, I heard a teacher's voice and a bunch of guy voices and for some reason, I looked up. Guess what? He was one of them!! :P They were on the road in front of me! God!! Heaven on a silver platter... The teacher asked them to help her (yes, it was a her.. And a young her, too) carry some things from her car. He is so damn cute!!! He looked to be on really good terms with the teacher as well.. So I heard his voice from where I was.. *sigh*...

At 2, Tiah and Bazilah (kaka c-Jiqah) went down from Socio class. It was raining by then. ;P So Tiah walked me to the back behind the auditorium, which is where I usually wait for the car. It was raining (It had rained the night before and it had rained in the morning as well...) and we had to keep to one side because the other side was wet. We stood around and waited. Bit the wind pushed the water to our side until the whole sidewalk was wet and our kains got wet and our shoes and socks got wet.. XP It would have been fun if we weren't carrying my bookbag and file... So I texted uncle to pick me up at the front and we walked back. By the time we reached the audi though, the rain was already very much less heavier than it had been a couple of minutes ago. Oh well... So I went home. By 2.30, I'd reached my room and I got a text from Tiah. x) Guess what? Smile came to school!!! OMG!! And he walked right in front of Tiah!! And he was wearing a green T-shirt!! Ok.. I'm gonna stop using exclamation marks now... Lol...

Yesterday was just as great. So we had Literature and did the poem recital thingy... Lpas a2 History!!! We got out a few minutes early. Guess how we got that.. It was still 8.40. We're supposed to go out at 8.45. But the class next door already went out so Ms. Salwa asked the boys what time it was on their watches in case her watch was slow and they all said 8.44 so she let us out XD They're so mean... So anyway, I reached History class and there were only me, Syaumiqah and Aidah. I watched History guy, obviously... Lol... But soon only a handful of people were left... Including three guys... Including History guy... The problem was this:

I don't know if you can read that.. Lol... In words, yang tiga urang tu History guy and kawannya 2 urang. =) One of his friends was in my place. The other guy in front of him and History guy at the third marked place. Syaumiqah, oblivious to my problem, asked if we could go inside so I had to say yes so she went inside and I had to follow because she might wonder why if I didn't. So I went in and stopped at the point by the guys' area.. Actually, that's an error. I should've written guys' tables. =P Whatever.. I stopped for a minute.. Not sure what to do... I decided to go and wait by my table, where i marked with "Me". The guy in my seat had his back to me and History guy completely ignored me, conversing with the other guy. The other guy sort of stared at me, probably wondering what the hell I was doing just standing there looking all meek and timid, stealing glances at them (mostly at History guy obviously :D). Finally they moved towards the door and I could put my bag and file down. But I kept standing and stared at History's back.. I know.. What's wrong with me... Lol... But then History guy stopped outside the door. I don't know what he was doing. He was talking with his friends. I just kept watching.. Then he looked inside the classroom for a long moment. XP At the time I had no idea what he was looking at.. I was perfectly oblivious to it.. But then Jiqah came and I grinned at her and she's like "What are you smiling for?" in a real loud voice but luckily History guy had already gone. Then Jiqah said that History guy was looking at me and she saw that I had been looking outside and she thought that was really funny because we were actually looking at each other. ;P I DID NOT notice!!! How could I have not noticed?? I mean.. He's just so cute.. But that I didn't even realize that he was looking at me??? How utterly, completely oblivious I am.. *sigh*...

At 9.30, I had to leave to take a class photo. Sikit gi aku lupa wawawa... So we took two formal photos and one not formal photo. I forgot to think about what pose I should take prior to this so I made a typical peace sign. =.= Boring!! Nisa said she made a blank face because she had no idea what to do lol...

Then Nisa and I went to our respective classes since it was 5 minutes to 10.00... But Irah and Jiqah weren't in class so I went back down to look for them and there they were lol... Pastu aku ma Irah kdapan library tapi lupa ku knapa ahahha XD Then we turned back and guess what?? CCLL went past us!! I hadn't seen him for two whole days and then there he was.. *sigh* Still as cute as ever... >_<

He'd been skipping ASL since before the holidays so when Irah said he actually came yesterday, I'm like "Seriously? O_O" Lol... And cikgunya, Mr. Holland, the one who became our guide for the Berambang trip, said something to the lines of, "You almost gave me a heart attack." =D I'm not surprised since before the holidays, every time Mr. Holland saw him, he'd ask if he's gonna come to class and he says yes but he never does... He also went to Geo class.. Actually, he probably went to all his classes but I can't be sure.. He's so cute... *sigh*...

A whole page dedicated to our trip...

Awesome!! :)

The title.. Inspirational?

Yea right... XP

Everyone that went on the trip..

Well maybe not everyone... If smua urg, then who's taking the picture??? :D

Sheila, Nisa & me.. Iyah...

Dpan2 kmi a.. haha :P

In the purple box, it says "Ms. Salwa" hahaha... Dmit bh..

Pa kn ni cmni ani... Ksian tcher nyubuk dri blkg cRusydi ya.. Hahha...

Mr. Holland

Arif 2...

His pic was one of the few that can actually be recognizable (a little) when you enlarge it... XD

This is the view that we saw.. It's beautiful but seriously.. I don't think it was worth the climb...

Sorry teacher...

I know it's really not clear but that's water coming down from the mountain on a bamboo shoot...

We were so tired that it tasted so nyummy... If water could taste nyummy that is... It was really refreshing.. Especially after we climbed down the mountain..

One of the main transport system on the island was motorcycles... Pretty cool...

Reminded me of when we went to Indonesia two years ago and motorcycles were like everywhere, carrying whole families and stuff...

Oh and there's Ms. Salwa and Mr. Holland too... =D

Some of the local kids... Notice that the car does not have a license plate... :P

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