Life as it is

Listening to : "SOS" by Jonas Brothers

Well, I forgot to insert my Mutiah101 class the night before yesterday whereby Tiah told me I had to find some other cute guy in order to think less of CL2. I failed yesterday. However, it wasn't such a bad thing cause i saw more than one cute guy today.. :) Well, they're not as cute as Chong Chong Ling Ling but they did help me to forget about him.. I'm not really thinking about him much today.. So that's a great improvement.

The first guy was a waiter at Aneka Rasa restaurant. Syakirah said it was her favorite restaurant because of that waiter lol... So she pointed him out to me and I couldn't help but admit that for a kid, she had good taste. He wasn't that cute but not bad.. Not bad at all...

After we ate, we went to Soon Lee at Batu Satu and I found a bunch of guys who worked there that were just as cute.. Lol.. The first was the guy whose job is to weigh the fruits and whatever.. He looked Chinese.. Syakirah said he was Chinese.. But after all, she's been known to be wrong before so.. I like him better than Waiter though lol.. Thank goodness.. Syakirah can have that guy.. I prefer Lee.. ^^

There 2 or 3 other not-so-bad guys as well.. But anyway, I'm bored.. Plus I gotta finish my homework.. Which lately I haven't been short of... I hate homework...

Okay, this has got to be the most yet exhilarating day ever!! But first things first...

we didn't have EAS or literature class because the English teachers were busy with the school debate competition... wherever that might be... Our EAS class was told this last-minute though.. We were hanging around outside waiting for the BE/AE class to get out of the class... Just when it was almost empty, signaling we could go inside, Ms. Nurul came out of the next-door staffroom and told us we were off the hook =D So we went away. Everytime we passed our late classmates, they'd be like, "Napa? Nada klas kh? Syok jua!" Ok, so I just made up that last part lol but don't tell me everyone wasn't thinking it... I mean, I was.. Who can blame me? Lol... So when I turned the corner to the admin building, I was expecting to see Irh, (her PS at the time) and instead I saw Tiah's bag. Then I remembered she had GP for block 5 so obviously her teacher would be busy as well... So we hung out.. My history work was not finished.. In fact, I'd come up empty.. Lol... Then Aidah came by and dragged me to the library... Luckily Syamiqah (sp?) had a friend who had notes on the impact... I borrowed it and quickly jotted down what i thought was important...

Then block 4 came along and Tiah had to go to History class... So I was left alone but then Irah was there cause her ASL teacher was also busy. We went to the audi to collect our school sports T-shirt (well me anyway.. Irah already got hers) So I went in alone, Irah waited outside. Then I tried out the S size and it was pretty big... I have no idea what we're gonna use it for though... Weird... XD Then we went to my locker cause I didn't want to carry it around with me... But when we climbed the stairs and got to the intersection area where my locker was, HE was there... @_@' I DID not expect to see him there AT ALL... He looked at us and then ignored (or pretended to ignore) us and looked down the balcony at who-knows-what and then turned back to his class.. (All the time I was like clamping down my mouth cause I just wanted to stare at him) After he went back to class, we "went to the W.C."... Passing his class in the process.. Damn he was hot... After we past the second time, we hung around the intersection, looking at the notice board and whatever.. Farhanah, who had also been in the class when we passed, came out and hung out with us... We just "buat bodoh" over there.. Like seriously, we were bored as hell.. (I don't really get that phrase... Hell isn't boring.. I'm pretty sure it's filled with activity.. But whatever...)

Then, Irah and I went back to the admin block... I forgot why I was looking at the library but sometime later I thought I saw someone with CCLL's hair.. So we went to the library to return one of my borrowed books just to see if it was him. When we came in, he was on his way out... OMG..... He is just heaven with legs.. lol... Then we went out and back to our usual place... Obviously I kept staring back at him...

During break, Ziqah and I accompanied Far to the audi to get her T-shirt... When we got there, we waited outside. Nisa came along and we talked while waiting.. Just before Nisa came over, he was there.. Maybe ten feet away from me.. *sigh*... *_* We laughed about the fact that Tiah had literally said, "Behapa tah ya nda bbutang a2? Nda jua bbulu.." That is GROSS!! Honestly! Why would she even think about that?? I mean, the three of us, Ziqah, Nisa and I all agreed that that was a totally gross thought.. Obviously, we did NOT want to see hair.. I mean... Maybe he was showing off the fact that he was 'clean' ;) Lol... Tiah can be so weird sometimes...

After break, Ziqah and I had history class.. I asked Ziqah to go around the admin building the longer way.. Just for the chance for a glimpse.. But I didn't get that glimpse.. I got a lot more.. (Thanks to Ziqah... =.=") We were reaching the stairs when Ziqah looked to her side at the empty area between the admin building and the corner stairs. She told me to look and then rushed upstairs.. I had no idea what she meant by that so I turned and took a hard look at the direction she'd pointed at. THERE WAS CHONG CHONG LING LING AND FREN WALKING IN MY DIRECTION, LOOKING AT ME!!! (well, at least in my direction) I had absolutely no doubt that they saw me apparently "peeking" at them.. I was so embarrassed that I quickly rushed up the stairs, calling at Ziqah.. Just as I was about to reach the top of the stairs, I thought I saw a guy looking up at me as if I grew a second head so I turned and saw Arif. I said (in what I thought was a LOUD voice), "Hey Arif!!" About the time those LOUD words left my mouth, CCLL had just arrived behind Arif. My eyes grew so wide and I immediately ran up the stairs, when I reached Ziqah I hit her arm again and again. She went quickly into class to escape me. Before I follwed her in, I stopped at the doorway and looked to the side.. Arif was a little way behind me and I kept waiting.. As soon as I saw CCLL, I skipped in and hit Ziqah some more.. Then Arif entered the class and I stood and waited. Sure enough, soon CCLL walked past.. Guess what? He looked into the class.. It barely registered in my brain that I was staring at him... I have no idea if he saw me or not... I pointed him out to Ziqah and hit her again.. ;D

Then Ziqah wanted to go to the toilet which, conveniently, was in the direction CCLL went... So we went.. Ziqah was out the door first and she saw Rafi (the guy I suspect has a crush on me) talking to CL2 and she said (in a loud voice), "Ia kawan c-Rafi! Rafi!" Rafi gave her a sideways look and went back into class.. Honestly, I have no idea what got into Ziqah today... So went I walked out of the class, Chong Chong Ling Ling was outside the Sociology staffroom with his friend, talking to Mr. Simmons.. So, as usual, Ziqah was behind me and I turned to talk to her and I saw a guy that I thought was from the MPI hurrying up behind us.. I was afraid if he'd be annoyed if we blocked his path so I sped up... Chong Chong Ling Ling had moved to rest on the low wall rail thingy... As I approached him, he looked at me and was smiling amusedly.. Like he was saying, "This girl is so obviously crushing on me it's hard to keep myself from laughing." I ignored it and continued walking.. But when I was getting closer, a girl was walking in the opposite direction so I had to turn sideways and walk between CCLL and the girl... (There wasn't much distance between me and Chong Chong Ling Ling... '_' But I had to stop and wait for Ziqah.. Somehow I did not notice him pass by us but the next time I looked to the front, he was there, going to the toilet... Woah...

That episode was SO FREAKIN' EMBARRASSING!!! It's all Ziqah's fault.. -.-' She's lucky she's my best friend or else I would've murdered her by now... Luckily for her, I'm not the type to hold grudges...

Well anyway.. I'm sleepy so I gotta stop now...

Syakirah asked me to order pizza tonight... Not really surprising.. She does it all the time.. So i ordered... When it arrived, I went downstairs to eat.. And I was just finishing my first piece when ka Ijah entered with a chocolate cake and singing "Happy Birthday"... And everyone joined in.. Well, everyone is not actually a lot of people lol just my immediate family..

I was a bit embarrassed hehehe... So I hugged everyone (except Fuad, like ew...) and unwrapped my presents.. Well, only one was wrapped lol... It was a miny army armchair and it was so cute!! And i could open it and it was like a jewellery box thingy! All set with a mirror and even a couple of mini army armchair pillows lol.. So very adorable..

And they got me a monkey doll (it was so soft!!! XD) and a monkey pencil (a pencil with a monkey on top ~_~) and monkey stationery.. *big eyes* how happy i am.. and a monkey wallet, keychain and lanyard thingy lol... It was AWESOME!!

Plus the cake was not so bad lol.. After all, it was chocolate ^^

Gosh, that was great... Lol...

21st April.. I can't believe I forgot to greet myself in my own freakin blog.. lol... Whatever.. Anyway.. I got a purple panda bank thingy from Nisa. She's in my BE. Not the same Nysa that is my best friend online.. I got some candy and a box of almond chocolates from Misah. Erm... I got a cool mug from Elyn. Erm... I got a bar of chocolate from Akmar... Oh oh.. My fav present is from Poopoo >_<>

I don't remember to much about my encounters with Chong Chong Ling Ling since last time I posted so I think I'll just talk about today.. Which is plenty enough.. x)

Wait, first i wanna talk about Harry's apparently subtle weirdness.. (Harry is almost Chong Chong Ling Ling's twin but actually he's the older brother, Ching Ching Ling Ling =P) Ok if you actually believe what I wrote in the brackets, I'm a better storyteller than I thought.. Lol... Anyway, whatever.. So yesterday I went home at 20 past 4 because I thought we had dance practice but it turned out to just be extra practice for the other girls and I could come if I wanted to, which I didn't since Irah was absent and I wasn't really into going it alone.. At lest, not yet.. So I wanted to show Tiah the essay I wrote about Ziqah which indicated pretty much most of what I know about her character.. I was rummaging in my file and Tiah went to wash her hands. When I finally located the essay, I pulled it out and looked up and Harry was passing by with his friends. When I looked at him, I had the feeling that he had been looking at me.. He turned away like it was nothing and I forgot about it.. Yeah right.. I did NOT forget about it lol.. But I was annoyed, obviously.. He's not bad but I definitely prefer Chong Chong Ling Ling... *sigh*...

And also sometime yesterday afternoon, Tiah and I were sitting on our bench when Rafi came past and Tiah said, "Weird jua lki2 a2.. bnr2 wa ya mliat ktane a" and i was surprised cause I thought he had quit that habit some time ago.. I dont remember if Ive recorded his story yet so i wont cause i just continued w/ CCLL after Harry's paragraph and decided to add everything else as an afterthought.

Oh yeah, there is a CUTE guy in the AE history class before our class.. Ziqah and I were waiting for them to leave in front of the back door. Then a guy came out and looked at us and turned and walked away but a second after his first look, he turned to look at us again *giggles histerically lol* hahaha it was SO funny x) Cause I rarely expect guys to do that kind of thing to me lol.. Well, i dont know if he was loking at Ziqah or me or both of us though.. ziqah said he looked at her first and at me the second time.. Oh well whatever lol...

Ms. Salwa is kind of weird sometimes.. I thought u were supposed to promote peace and manners but she lets us curse and even does it herself. Today she told us her favorite book to teach was Macbeth because (her description just made my eyes go wide) it was filled with blood and gore and stabbing and all that @_@ I was like what?? That is so morbid...

Ok, back to business... Chong Chong Ling Ling ~_~ I didn't see him yesterday. I think he skipped Geography and went home early.. I know he wasn't absent because Jat-jat saw him at the canteen when he had his art class and Tiah and Poopoo saw him in front of the library as they were going in. Anyway.. (I feel that i use the word "anyway" a lot in my blog entries..)

Today, we had literature first period. Ms. Salwa was late (I dont know why we call her Miss when she's already married...) and I was just looking out the window when Chong Chong Ling Ling passed by. He was walking away from his class, in the direction of my locker.. So I made an excuse to go to my locker but when I got there, he disappeared. There were a bunch of people outside so I didn't have the nerve to actually go and look for him. Suddenly, I seem to get the notion that he was testing me again.. Like when he first smiled at me.. Like he wanted to make sure I was the one who had a crush on him.. I feel like he passed by on purpose to see if I folled him (again) and then hid? Maybe.. I don't know.. I take things way too personally.. I hate myself.. =.="

Anyway, the next I saw him was after Sociology. I never expected to see him though. I mean, I don't know.. Whatever, the point is that Irah went to History class and Ziqah and I went to our usual place. But just as we reached the corner where the stairs was, I saw a big guy next to the stairs, leaning on the railing and right next to him was... *drum rolls* Chong Chong Ling Ling! :D Oh my gosh he was so hot! haha I'm so obsessing right now.. So we went to put our bags and then I suggested we "go to the W.C."... Instead, we passed the W.C. and went past his class. I'm not sure which one he was. The one sitting in the front or the one leaning against the side cupboard.. I only noticed the second after we passed to go back so I'm not really sure...

Ok, next... Irah wanted to buy a drink in front of the library so we went with Ziqah and Ziqah started talking about Harry and lo and behold, there he was. yada yada yada whatever.. Then ahead of him was Chong Chong Ling Ling! Woo-hoo! I was fanning myself with a Chupa Chupa flag and Ziqah was holding the other one.. He LOOKED AT US!!! =D Can you imagine HOW I FELT??? @_@ OMG!!! So we went past and suddenly it hit me that maybe he was just amused at the Chupa Chupa flag fans... -.- Then we went back (oh my gosh he was so irresistible..) Then we reached the admin and Fadilah was there, waiting for her friend so I "kept her company" while keeping my eyes on the library... ~_~

Then (this is a really funny part) I think Ziqah pointed him out to Farhanah and she told me she knew who my "guy" was.. Then I pretended to talk to her about nothing (I was telling her about him looking at my Chupa Chupa flags -.-) as he passed behind me *sigh* and then some guy tripped XP (i know i shouldn't laugh but i did the same thing last time someone tripped there :D) and I dont know.. Maybe he bumped into CL2 or something but he stopped and turned. Irah was about to laugh and I was so surprised when he tripped that I don't know.. Maybe I turned in surprise or something and I thought I hit Irah with my Chupa Chupa fan (I only hit the air in front of her) and I lAUGHED SO LOUD!! OMG how embarrassing!! =$ I mean, Ziqah was shocked at my volume! So I guess i can contribute the fact that the guy tripping was so funny and i had thought that i hit Irah with the flag PLUS i was kinda hyper that CL2 was still there to my loudness..

Anyway, later on we accompanied Ziqah to her class, passing CL2's Geo class in the process (I think he was the one sitting in front) and went up.. We disturbed the peace of the classroom for a few minutes and then left. When we passed by his class again, I think he was the one doing some work or whatever with his classmate..

Then we stopped at the notice board next to the corner stairs. We were talking about some memo on a climbathon thingy and I dont know.. Maybe I was pretty loud and he heard us or something.. But next thing I knew he passed by us AND HE WAS LOOKING AT US AND FREAKIN SMILING!!!! ARGH! This is SO crazy! @_@ I saw him wash his hands at the pipe.. OMG.... Today is practically the best day of my life ^^

Then we went to the front of the library cause I wanted a drink (yea right) and as we passed by him, AGAIN he looked at us and I dont know what was his expression cause obviously i didnt dare to look back... But oh gosh he was hot... Then we went to the front of the admin at the end cause there was a couple on the bench and Irah wasn't exactly partial to dating couples... When I finished my soya bean, I went to the far rubbish bin to catch a glimpse of him. He was blocked from view by a pillar but i saw his hands (such adorable arms! =] ) and he was playing with his tie...

Then we went home and we passed him again.. *sigh*

Sorry I completely forgot to past yesterday.. Lol... So anyway, let me just talk about what happened yesterday before I move on to today..

Ok, I totally thought he was absent yesterday cause I didn't see him at all during lunch... And Irh said he wasn't in ASL class... But THEN... Ziqah and I had history class in the afternoon... We went in early and chatted with Dina for a bit.. Then maybe 2 or 3 minutes to 2 p.m., I just happened to look out the window and I saw someone with his hair go past by.. I was so surprised. I immediately asked Ziqah to go to the toilet with me cause that was the direction he went in.. Luckily Ziqah, unlike some people I know, was pretty quick on her feet when it really mattered so I didn't have to wait long for her... When we got out of class though, whoever had passed had disappeared.. It didn't matter.. We went to the girls' room anyway. BUT!! We haven't even passed our class yet and there he was! He went out of the History staffroom with a piece of paper in his hand. He glanced t us for a second and walked away.. So we walked behind him.. As soon as we saw him and he turned away from us, ZIQAH STARTED GIGGLING!!! @_@ I was like ZIQAH! NO! DON'T LAUGH! Well, I was like that in my head anyway.. Outside, I kept my cool and pretended to laugh a bit as well and asked why she was laughing.. -.-' So we went to the toilet.. We were barely there for a minute really... We left the toilet and AGAIN, there he was!! *sigh* He was just leaving the guys' toilet... And again he was in front of us.. He went to the history staffroom again. As he left the door open, I peeked inside with the excuse of seeing if Miss Izan was still there or not... I didn't see him though.. But damn it! He was so cute!! ^^

But I was surprised to see him since I thought he was absent.. Ziqah said maybe he just escaped class.. And I guess I sort of agreed... Reluctantly anyway.. But then we figured maybe he wasn't class because he had some business to attend to.. (Not sure what exactly is the term I'm looking for)...

Next issue, our visit to JIS today...

Anne Fine is so awesome! Apparently she's one of the most famous children's book writers in England... She wrote the book Madam Doubtfire.. (Man, I love that movie)... She gave us a lot of tips on writing... She told us where she got some of her ideas for books and stuff.. And it was awesome! She really got it all from things that happened around her... She was really cool and funny and everything... I wanted her to sign my book but I was a little embarrassed cause it was just a stupid book and Almost-guy Person and his Siamese twin got her autograph on HER books that they bought for themselves... And they got to take a picture with her as well.. Oh well...

Jim-Jim asked me to help do some research for his Geography project tomorrow... I mean I did it tonight.. He needed the info tomorrow.. I wanted to ask him who were in his group.. Who knows.. CL2 might be in it... But I didn't have the guts to...

Ok, he was so freakin' cute today!! It's like crazy! Lol.. I apologize in advance if I happen to use the word crazy a lot... It's like the word of the day lol... Last Saturday, it was stupid.. XD

Ok, first things first. This is Monday... So I had PS first thing in the morning. As usual, I was on my way to the admin building... I was thinking that CL2 had history at this time.. So I was like, hmm... I doubled back and went past his class.. Lol.. (not stalking!! =P) He wasn't there... Instead, he was just climbing up the stairs near the toilet at the end of the hall thingy whatever... SO hot!! XD

After PS, I still didn't have class cause my EAS teacher, miss Nurul had an interview. So I had another PS hour with Irah. Lol... What fun! ;D Hehe... Anyway, nothing much happened. Then it was break. Irah and I accompanied Poopoo to hand in her work to her biology teacher. When we came back, there was Tiah. After a few minutes, Ziqah rounded the corner. I waved to her. THEN!! *giggles* HE came round the corner with Azim!! LOL!!! It was like crazy! :P He even saw me wave at Ziqah.. Oh my gosh! How embarrassing.. (That is, if he was even looking at me, lol) So I left Irah and went over to Ziqah. He passed behind me! *giggles* Then, when I turned back to Irah, SHE WAS TALKING TO HIM!!! =D HOW AWESOME!!! Hehehe... I know.. It's so crazy! Lol... She was asking about ASL.. I am SO envious... @_@

Oh, oh. After that, Irah wanted to buy a drink. So we went to the stall thingy in front of the library. After she bought her drink, I was looking at Harith but when my eyes left him, THEY PASSED CL2!! ;D This is absolutely crazy! Lol... (I have a stomachache now.. Gotta go on, though...) And he was sort of looking in my direction and I was suddenly struck by his eyes.. He has GORGEOUS eyes.. XP

So, changing the subject... Literature totally suck this year... We were assigned as essay on Caesar's character to be handed in today. However, Nabilah and I hadn't finished ours yet. And you know what? She said, she's gonna penalize 5 marks if we didn't hand it in by 12 noon today. How B-I-T-C-H-Y is that?? (Sorry... Spelling it just sounds less mean.. Lol...) So, of course, we're gonna lose 5 marks just because we're gonna hand in our work 1 DAY late... What the *toot!* Sorry.. *evaporating anger >.<*

Ok, nothing much happened in history so I'm gonna skip straight to Sociology lol... I seriously hate that Almost-Gay Person... On Thursday, we didn't have a Sociology teacher yet so we were just hanging out in class as usual.. The girls and guys at the next table were suddenly praying so naturally I put my hands together... It's ONLY NATURAL, AGP! Ugh.. How crazy... Anyway, he was like, Oh, this isn't for you, while looking at me and waving his hand as if dismissing me. I was like WHAT IN THE NAME OF CRAZINESS!!! X@ So in Sociology, our eyes sort of met for a second and instead of the nothingness I usually feel when my eyes happen to meet someone else's, somehow I sort of felt electricity there.. Sort of like tension.. *gasps* Maybe he hates me too! Hmm... COOL!!! ;D

Ok, so like whatever. Oh yeah! On Saturday, he was SO cute~~~ CL2, I mean.. DUH!! *laughs out loud* As usual, during break, Irah and I went to the library stall thingy. He was there... We wanted to buy roti john and it just so happened that the roti john was RIGHT NEXT TO HIM!! =D So Irah went to get one for herself and I was like "Ambilkan aku jua, Rah" and as she was taking the second one, HE LOOKED AT US!! *giggles insanely* lol... Ok, so I'm not really sure if he was looking at us or the roti john we were buying lol.. Anyway, he seemed to be trying to decide what to buy cause his hands were in the standard thinking position lol... Well, I do that pose all the time.. But hey, I'm not the usual standard person.. Lol.. Anyway, HE WAS SO CUTE!!! :P

Ok, enough already..

Ok, I was gonna post yesterday but the internet went all crappy just a few seconds before I could click publish... =.=” I wasn’t able to post today either because, again, the internet connection went crappy on me and died. Anyway, I’ll just have to retype it… Grrr…
So Monday, I said I was gonna forget him. (Chong Chong Ling Ling, in case you didn’t guess). I was totally resolved to keep my promise the next morning. However, circumstance wasn’t exactly on my side. We had sociology first period. Out of habit, when we left the class, I looked out for him. He wasn’t anywhere to be seen. I didn’t care. After all, I was supposed to forget him. Ziqah and I went to the admin building as usual. Ziqah immediately spotted Bahar in front of the library and started badmouthing him. I put my bag on the bench and joined her. Instead of Bahar, what I saw was even more horrible. I saw HIM!! :’( So, it went like this:

Me: Ia kh 2? Ia kh 2? OMG! Ia! Ziqah! Laju! Kantin! *tugs on Ziqah’s sleeve*
Ziqah: Spa kn Mal? Spa kn?
Me: -.- Chong Chong Ling Ling wa!
Ziqah: Ahh… Mana? Mana? Aku na nampak pun. *looks in completely wrong direction*
Me: Tu! Tu! Laju wa! Lari! *tugs harder on Ziqah’s sleeve*
Ziqah: Mana kan Mal eh?!
Me: *finally manages to drag Ziqah in direction of kantin* Blakang tane wa!!
So Ziqah turns around at perhaps the exact same moment Chong Chong Ling Ling notices us.

Ok, first encounter done and over with. I drank iced teh tarik and later wished I hadn’t cause I developed a stomachache as a result. So during break, with plenty of time to spare, I had Irh accompany me to the toilet. We passed by the geography classes. I forgot what we were talking about. It just so happens that I turned to Irah near the class that had the blinds up. I glimpsed inside and again, THERE HE WAS!! @_@’ Right by the window, sort of facing us. I have no idea if he even noticed us though. So, the very day I planned to forget him, I found out the location of his geography class… -.-‘ So not helping…

Then we got to the toilet but I changed my mind, having realized that my stomachache had evaporated. So we went back. We had just turned into the admin building and I think I was b*tching on someone but I forgot who. I knew there were some guys behind us but I figured they were irrelevant in my life so they might as well see my true nature. Lol. I turned to Irah, exclaiming in a totally loud, obnoxious annoying voice, “S.O.B. jua tu Rah!” I sorta glanced behind us and for the third time, HE WAS THERE!!!! Like, as in, right behind us… I couldn’t believe it!! How embarrassing!! Thank god I wasn’t talking about HIM!! I quickly strode over to where Tiah and Ziqah were and started whining.

So you see why I can’t forget him just like that. Then again, I didn’t see him AT ALL all day yesterday. What’s that about?

Today, I feel that I really should forget about him. I saw him with who I can only suppose to be his girlfriend… She was sort of fixing his hair or something… I am so envious… =( But, after all, she IS most likely his girlfriend, so why not right? I mean… It’s not like I could ever do something like that to him… I mean, I guess I don’t mind playing with their hair… Lol. But that’s about it…

Ok, I guess I should change the subject… I switched Quran to Traditional Dance today. It was pretty cool, actually. It was just me and Irh though… I couldn’t convince Ziqah to join… Too bad. I know she would have flourished. Anyway, they taught the two of us some basic movements. They’re called Joget and the other one is Inang, I think. They’re pretty hard if you’re not used to them. I hope I’ll get the hang of ‘em soon. Our next meeting is on Monday. Hope it’ll be a bit easier…

Oh yeah, I think we’re getting on a boat or something tomorrow. Not sure yet so I can’t be too excited… XP Plus, I’m hoping I get a chance sometime tomorrow to look for Readers’ Haven or Reader’s Heaven or something like that. Lol…It’s a bookstore (obviously!). I’ve been pretty excited to go there… My classmate, Aidah, said it’s cheaper than Best Eastern and they don’t charge you if they order a book for you… How awesome is that?? I wanna go! I wanna go! @_@ Hehehe…

Anyway, I’m actually a bit sleepy but I sort of feel like it’s too early to go to sleep… So maybe I’ll play a game or something…

First, let me just talk about when i saw him today.. *sigh* How cute... ;P

We didn't have a teacher yet for Sociology.. However, Chong Chong Ling Ling did... So anyway, I forgot what I was doing in class... Like 10 minutes before 2, I saw the girl who won't give anyone else a chance to talk pass by my class.. As I have or have not mentioned before, she's in his class.. -.-' Cruel irony is what I call it... Anywho, I deduced from this observation that their class had obviously ended. So I rushed Ziqah and Irah to pack their things, I doing the same. Thankfully, we were a little slow on the rushing thing so we took at least a couple of minutes.. Then we went out in the direction of my locker.. Obviously since Chong Chong Ling Ling didn't have anything this afternoon after Sociology, he naturally went the other way towards the admin building. As soon as I saw him, I quickly grabbed onto Irh's arm to stop myself from bumping into anything as I walked looking back at him walking further and further away.. Suddenly though, he turned! I had to quickly turn my head around but I'm pretty sure he noticed the weird girl with glasses staring at him almost openly... :D How embarrassing...



Anywho, as I said in the title, I'm planning on forgetting both Smile AND Chong Chong Ling Ling. Face it. I have no chance with either of them. Smile, on one hand, hasn't been online for at least a week now and I've given up all hope of ever getting enough nerve to text him. Chong Chong Ling Ling, on the other hand, I suspect to already have a girlfriend.. He also has no reason to actually notice me. I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself. I'm just stating facts. And the fact is, he probably does has a girlfriend. Poopoo said, during PS, Tiah saw him walk around with some girl a lot... It might just be coincidence.. Bu, I mean, after all... What hope do I have for him? He's a non-Muslim... I can't.. I shouldn't even consider him... I realize that now..



For now, I feel like I should just focus on Facebook Guy... Not in that way, mind you... I mean, he's sweet and everything and we actually make contact! I don't know if he has a girlfriend or not.. Maybe he does... But it doesn't matter.. Cause if he does.. Let me just think of him as one of the sweetest friends I have that can make me smile when I'm feeling depressed.. Like tonight... I'm not gonna ask him for anything.. Not his name, his age, his email or whatever... If he offers his information to me, that's be nice.. But I like our relationship just the way it is... I'm not gonna have any hopes this time.. I'll just follow the flow..



Yea, yea.. I know what you're thinking.. Aww... Amal is all grown up now! Yada yada yada... I mean, seriously.. What's the point of guys when you have friends? I think that I've got plenty of time to think about guys.. But for now, I wanna concentrate on friends.. Facebook Guy, Leq-Leq, the girls... They'll always be there... Maybe not physically.. Or even mentally... But I know that I can count on them to either try to cheer me up, to make me smile or make me laugh.. I can trust them.. :-)



!^=<'@_-\*]\~@)=["~$)[\@;],`Friends Forever`,[;@/]($~"]=(@~/[*/-_@'>=^!

I only saw him once today.. :( In front of the library during break, i was accompanying Irh buy a bottle of water. I only caught a glimpse of him, though.. I didn't dare stare much longer.. In case he saw me watching.. Or any of his friends saw me.. After that, i couldn't see him. The throng of people going here and there blocked him from view.. (Btw, in case you haven't guessed, i'm talking about Chong Chong Ling Ling).



Oh yeah, before I forget, i had a history test today, after break. It was ok, i guess.. At least i managed 1 1/3 pages.. lol.. Although my teacher said we should write an essay of at least 2 1/2 pages for exams.. @_@ Oh well... My handwriting was small, after all...Hope I got some marks though...



Oh, I seriously love this song I'm listening to. I'd Lie by Taylor Swift. Maybe later I'll post it here.. Maybe...



Anyway, I had sociology after history.. So i kept going to the toilet just to pass by his class, and each time, he wasn't there! I was so disappointed.. And curious too. He usually stays in class... =( After sociology was lunch. He usually passes by the admin building, which is where we hang out. But he didn't...

So there can only be three interpretations for that..

a) he had to leave school early for some reason...
b) he has the history test in the afternoon so he spent his time in the library, studying (i doubt it but who knows?)
c) since he knows i like him, he did it to avoid me T_T

Oh yea, Tiah said she saw him during her ps w/ his girlfriend.. But Jim2, whose in his geography class, says he doesn't have a gf... So i dont know who to believe...
;(

Oh well...

This quote definitely applies in this case:
"I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you"

Ok im sorry! I couldnt post last night cause my mum borrowed my laptop n i fell asleep waiting... i have got such a BIG story... well it is to me ok.

I dont remember if ive mentioned this but Chong Chong Ling Ling and i have the same block for Sociology i.e. we have it at the same time except he's in the clsas next to mine.. So anyway, There was me, Zqah and Irh. We were in Socio class. Suddenly, we saw him pass by our class.. Oh my gosh.. He is SO cute.. @_@ I don't know where he went but i persisted in dragging Zqah and Irh to my locker, which was in the same direction as whereever it was Chong Chong Ling Ling was going. But when we got out of class, he disappeared!! So we went on to my locker. He wasn't anywhere to be seen. But suddenly i thought that maybe he went to the adjacent building ( my locker is like in the intersection between the two buildings). So i peeked at the other building and there he was! he was facing me and i have no idea what the hell he was doing. But i was so surprised that i immediately turned around and walked swiftly back to class, Zqah and Irh walking behind me. When we got back to class, i was opening the door so i was turned in the direction from which we came and again, there he was! I quickly pulled Irh back inside and we sat back down as if nothing had happened. Then he came by our class. He was looking inside the windows and smiling as if he knew something. But i didn't notice it then. I was just thinking about how cute his smile was.

After Socio, Zqah and I had ps i.e. personal/private study. Irah had left already seeing as she had history and the teacher was way strict and scary. So I was at the door, about to leave, when THERE HE WAS! He had history class in our socio class.. And i guess he just saw me and i just saw him and then he SMILED!!! And i sort of smiled back.. I guess. I had no idea what exactly was my expression due to my poor attempt at a smile. IT WAS SO FREAKIN CUTE!!! Him, i mean.. Not me.. Heheh..

By the way, all this happened yesterday :)

Anyway... I can only interpret it in three ways...
a) he "likes" me.. (zqah said that =.=) i know! impossible, right?? @_@
b) he saw me looking at him and he smiled just to be polite...
c) he sort of guessed sum1 from my clas lykes him so he decided to make sure so he passed my class on purpose to see if we followed him.. n when he saw me near my locker, he was sure that we was right... so he came back w/ that knowing smile on his face.. then maybe when i was at the door he wanted to make sure if it was me or not so he gave me that smile to see how i would respond.. either that or he did guess that it was me so he gave a friendly smile just to say "Let's just be friends."

@_@ im so stressing out about this right now... PLUS i have a history test tomorrow n ive barely studied!

Ok, once again it’s late. Actually in Thailand, it’s just midnight. Whatever. It’s just one hour of a difference anyway.

First things first. I forgot to mention the train ride last night. We went on the train to the Night Bazaar and back. It was so cool! It was fast too. I think that’s my first time ever on a real train. I know, I know. It’s just a train. But still! It’s not like I have any hope of riding one in Brunei, right? The country is so small we don’t really need one.

Oh yeah, at the Floating Market yesterday, it really amazed me cause it depended a lot on teamwork for it to uh… work. I mean, it was so crowded a crash would have been inevitable. But everyone worked together, boatmen and stallholders alike. It was so awesome. No arguments, no nothing. Mom talked to some white people. She asked where they were from. Australia. I said, “Cool!” Then the women asked mom where we were from and she said Brunei and the woman went, “Cool!” It was so funny! Ok, not really all that funny…

So, on to today. I mentioned last night that we were going to the zoo this morning. There were some good and bad parts, I guess. First we saw the Crocodile Show. It was horrible! Two men came out and started poking the crocodiles and whatnot. They’ve probably been doing it for years! I mean, they were totally torturing those poor creatures… The crocodiles didn’t even retaliate. They didn’t try to bite them or whatever. It must mean that they were used to it. That’s so cruel! I hated watching it but it’s not like I had much of a choice. I couldn’t exactly go anywhere else without everyone going all worried and stuff. S I had to endure it.

After the show, we left the venue and found this INCREDIBLY CUTE MONKEY!!! She was so ADORABLE!! She was even wearing a dress. OMG!!! Ka Ijah kept telling me to just hold her but I was too scared… Too bad…

Then we went to see all the other animals. We saw an elephant show. It wasn’t as bad as the crocodile show, thank goodness. Irah’s mom, Syakirah and Hani rode on an elephant! They also rode on a horse carriage. Then the two kids plus ka Ijah and Fuad rode on the boat cycling ride thingy…

Before we left, as usual, we had to go see the shops. I took the opportunity to go back to the adorable little monkey w/ dad. I held her! And I have a picture to prove it! I might put it on the blog… If I could get it into the computer. I’ll try.

Then we went to some stalls off somewhere. I got into a bit of a bad mood cause I was looking at a bookmark and mom asked me what I was looking at and ka Ijah said it was a key chain and mom got all mad. That is so annoying! Ka Ijah didn’t even look at what I was holding! I got scolded for absolutely nothing! Sheesh! I hate it when that happens!

So we went home on the train again tonight. That was fun… Hehe…

Then I guess that’s pretty much covers everything today. Well, actually yesterday considering this is past midnight already. Yeah, whatever…

Yeah, yeah. I know it’s late. But we only just got back and I seriously wanted a shower. My feet were totally killing me and all. Today wasn’t so bad. It was actually a great day, if you don’t count the my-feet-are-killing-me part.

First we took a two-hour ride to the floating market. The trip was fun, actually. We saw a lot of things on the way. Like some temples or shrines or whatever. You know, for Buddhists. I even saw a mosque. So the floating market was literally floating. Small shops on boats on the river. We divided into two groups and each group had their own boat. My group included Irah’s mom, my mom and dad plus Fuad. I bought a few things. Key chains mostly. It’s like a have this need to buy my friends something. Lol. Plus I just adore key chains. Ka Ijah bought this really cool white hat/bonnet whatever. There was an awesome hat that could turn into a fan and all. I wanted to buy one but I didn’t really think I’d ever need a hat.

Then we went to this shopping complex called MBK (Mah Boon Krong, I think). I bought three books! Or was that last night? I forgot... Oh yeah... That was totally last night… Whatever… Hehehe… Grandma got pissed off cause we decided to split up i.e. Her and Anas’s dad while the rest of us went together. We were only worried that the two kids would slow us down and we didn’t think she’s like the waiting around… She got all mad and said we didn’t want her to come along. And then dad and I got lost and searched everywhere for everyone else until my mom or sister or whoever texted my dad and said they were sitting in front of a shoe shop we went to before.

Tonight we went to the Night Bazaar. Mom and dad stayed behind cause they were tired. Grandma was still sulking. Syakirah and Hani wasn’t allowed to go (Wahaha!!) so it was just the rest of us. You CANNOT believe how much stuff I bought. They were mostly key chains but I bought a few cool T-shirts as well. I bought this cool black T-shirt that said “I’m sorry if I looked interested. I’m not.” Lol. That’s funny. There was this totally AWESOME T-shirt that said “This must be you’re lucky day cause I’m single.” I SO wanted to buy it but everyone else were already moving ahead so I couldn’t. x(…

So tomorrow we are going to the zoo in the morning so I gotta go and get some shuteye. I hope I get to take lots of pictures… =P